August 10th

I now have only one breast. In some ways that is very hard to accept. On the other hand, as I said before, I must look at it as getting rid of the cancer which makes it far easier to accept. I know in the back of my mind I will always worry some that perhaps it will return somewhere else. However, I have always believed we have only one life and that I should make the most of every minute of it. I feel that even more now. My test results are so good and I love it. I just don't want to waste a minute of my life being negative. As a result, when negative thoughts start creeping in, I picture myself actually physically kicking them out. I must remember that, with the help of a good doctor and a positive outcome, the breast can be rebuilt (which frankly I find amazing!). It will never be the same and it will be painful and take lots of patience to achieve, but for me it will be a constant reminder of all the positive things in my life even though I don't deny shit happens. My constant mantra must always be LIFE IS GOOD!