August 4th

Later this week I go to Seattle to see both the surgeon who performed the mastectomy and the oncologist. I know I will take hormone therapy for five years. I am waiting to see if I need chemotherapy. Either way I worry. I believe worry will always try to rear it's ugly head. If I do have to have chemo, it's "Oh no, let's just get thru this" and then build myself back up for reconstruction. If I don't have to do chemo, then it's "Wow that's great but have I done everything I can to prevent cancer from returning?" These are some of the thoughts I am sure most cancer patients have. I know my test results were very good and I am so very grateful for that but there is always fear of the unknown. Most of the time I'm very upbeat and positive - on top of the situation. However, sometimes, for just a few minutes, the situation climbs on top of me!