July 3

I am grateful for the day I had today. Today was a "scrapbooking" day. My wonderful friends were here and we talked the day away. What good therapy!! I didn't get any scrapbooking done. I am having a very hard time focusing on one thing for long. We talked about what could be, what might be, and getting beyond this "bad boob" thing (humor always helps!). We laughed a lot which always helps. We women definitely need to talk things over, quite often over and over! We may not have solved the world problems but we felt better at the end of the day knowing we are in this life together. (I certainly did anyway!)

I have been reading the reconstruction literature sent by the head of the reconstructive department at Virginia Mason. I hope to use my own tissue. I have lots of questions and look forward to meeting with him next Tuesday, July 8th. I keep telling myself that a new boob and a tummy tuck wouldn't be so bad. I see my surgeon then afterwards and discuss the mastectomy which is to take place on July 16. (Could this still be just a very bad dream?)

Yeah, Annette, James, Phoenix and Rain come tomorrow!! IT'S THE FOURTH OF JULY!